Juggling Life

It has been a while since I wrote in my blog and there are many reasons why. I shall entertain or bore you with the numerous reasons. I've been juggling life and at times when you're juggling things one of them will fall and smack you right in the face! That thing for me was the wedding stress! Oh Lord, at one point I wanted to just cancel the wedding and elope because the pressure was too much for me. Worrying was my state of mind. I worried about everything and felt like it wouldn't go away.

Finally, Nat and I sat down and made a list of everything we needed to do and slowly but surely things are finally getting all checked off and I am so relieved! I still have a medium sized to-do list but it's better than having a mile long list. After some much needed stress relievers like not doing anything wedding related for a few days and visiting my best friend/maid of honor in PA...I feel so much better. I am now once again looking forward to the big day because I am peaceful about it.


Yesssss...I'm back to being at peace about the wedding. I just want to marry the man I love and forget about all the lil bits of BS that really don't matter! Oh yea and I've lost about 15 lbs so far and I am so happy. I cannot wait to lose some more.


In other news...This was me about 2 weeks ago:

Yup that was me jumping for joy. (Well, it's a dramatization shot of me.)

And yea, this was Nat and I also jumping for joy. (Again, a dramatization of us)

And that's me again the next morning. (Those doubles look nothing like me!)

And a Cartoon drawing of me. (Drawn to scale.)

I posted all the above pictures to simply illustrate that

I LANDED A JOB!

You are looking at newly hired woman! When I quit my job, I stated that my next job would be working with children and I am elated to report that I will be working with children as a Nanny.

Lol...I just had to throw that up there! I used to watch the show and think it was funny. Who would've known I'd become a nanny!

I'll be caring for the cutest set of twins, 1 girl, 1 boy! They are so cute and the family is really nice and down to earth. I am very excited about my new job.

Well until next time...take care!

March Madness is great!

I love the month of March! I love it for many reasons but mainly because it's the my Birthday month and Spring Starts!

My Birthday was last Friday, the 13th.


People are scared of Friday the 13th. But I love it! For me, it's good luck. I asked my fiance to make me birthday simple and not go crazy b/c I really don't want him to spend a lot. He told me to be ready by 7pm b/c he was taking me to a surprise location. I was so excited all day long. He came home early that day and gave me gifts early. He got me some pretty Vicky items and a cool coffee mug that featured my favorite funny lil characters: Hoops & Yoyo.
I loved his gifts! So thoughtful and sweet. At 7pm..I was all dressed up and he took me to an Italian Restaurant nearby. The food was amazing and the ambiance was intimate which made for a perfect evening planned by my hunny.

On Saturday, I went to visit family in Brooklyn. My aunt was getting the family together because my Dad is having a BIG surgery soon and she held a Prayer for him. After the Pastor blessed my family with a prayer, my family presented me with a yummy chocolate cake and I was very happy. They are so thoughtful and loving. I am so thankful and grateful for their love and positivity.

Besides my family cutting a cake for me, my soon to be In-Laws whom I adore, took me to dinner last night and also cut me a chocolate cake. I have heard of so many stories of new brides hating their In-laws but I honestly love mine. I admit, at first my future sister in law were distant, however things have become much better and I feel a better bond between us. My future Mom in law is the best. We have a wonderful relationship and I call her my 2nd Mom. I feel very comfortable talking to her because she is loving and kind.

Overall with all of my birthday celebrations and my lovely family around me for my Birthday...I felt like Royalty!

As I was looking for a birthday picture, I bumped in to the following pic and I loved it! Haha...

Since my last few Blogs, I have joined Twitter.com and I like it. I linked it to facebook and now I can post something on Twitter and it automatically gets posted on facebook. The simplicity behind Twitter is genius. It simple asks you what you are doing and you state it. You get to see what everyone is doing while making new friends.

On another note, I have a trainer now and I have been sticking to his routine. I pray it pays off and I look stunning for my wedding. My only goal is to make my Fiance get misty eyed as I walk down the aisle. I really would love it if he thinks I look absolutely beautiful!

So I'm off...Have a Great Evening!

Goals...

So this year I have many goals...
My biggest goal is my weight loss and I have been trying my best to lose the excess pounds but it is so hard. I have been eating healthy, counting calories, drinking green tea, downing lots of water and doing cardio and numerous workouts. Even with all of that, I feel like I am getting no where fast. I keep thinking to myself...maybe my body is a pack rat and does not want to let go to the pounds b/c it's emotionally attached to them.

I know that sounds dumb but I really don't know what else could be the reason for losing minimal pounds and yet I am trying so hard. I cannot give up but there are times where I want to just postpone the wedding just so I can shed more weight. I know that is not realistic but I just want to look good and feel good as I walk down the aisle. My Fiance keeps assuring me that he loves me and I look fine. Well I know that I don't feel fine and I know I need to lose weight to look and feel fine. It is so hard. He is on the diet too but I don't feel as though he is really trying hard because he doesn't work out or weigh himself often. He also has no problem indulging either. Bad Food will pop up around us like a vandal in a riot and I say "NO!" to the bad food and he says, "Come on! You can indulge here and there." This frustrates me sometimes because I wish he were more strict and when he advocates the bad food I feel like I am being a sour puss.

Guys just don't understand. We as women have to be and are expected to be glamorous, beautiful and seamless on our wedding day. We have to have perfect skin, hair dress and we cannot look like we are bulging out of it. I feel like I will look like a gross blob of white lace and its driving me insane and making me nervous about my BIG day. Everyone is so happy about the wedding and I thrilled to marry the man I love but I feel like I will look at my pictures down the road and say "OMG, ILL, put those away-I look hideous and fat!" I don't want to feel like that so I am doing all the things that I believe will help me but still losing ever so slowly. It sucks so bad. I hate it. I wish for one day I could be made of clay and I can sculpt myself the way I want to look. I know, I know--I live in a fantasy world and I dream too much but I am a Pisces and that's what we do=Dream!

Well enough of this pointless banter about things I cannot change (as fast as I'd like).

Lord, please grant me the metabolism of Olympic sprinter and the patience of Gandhi.

Random things...

Well, this week was a normal work week filled with lots of paperwork, annoying customers and mundane tasks. In the beginning of the week, I was sick and had an ear infection that is now all cleared up thankfully due to antibiotics. Nat gave me the cold I had and now although he didn't take any antibiotics, he's no longer sick. Sheesh! Men and their self-curing ways!

However, my poor Fiance now has a strained neck. He woke up yesterday with a severe pain in his neck and the doctor gave him meds. I wish I could cure his stiff neck, but only time heals all. I hate to see my loved ones hurt.

Some Great and Not so Great events occurred this week in regards to my family.

A Great event: It was my Mom's birthday and we all went out to Red Lobster for a drooling over cheese biscuit good time! We had some good laughs and it felt good to spend time with my lovely family. My Mom really liked the massage I got her and I was happy because she can be very picky at times when it comes to gifts.

Not so Great Event: My bro got into a car accident and scared the crap out of me! I thought he was hurt and I was so tense driving to the loss scene. Thankfully, he was okay; just a little shaken up because it was his first car accident. I deal with car accidents everyday at work but it's harder to deal with them when a loved one is involved.

Other than my week recap, it's the weekend and I am so happy to get a break from work. My job sucks the life out of me and when I am not at work my world is just so peaceful and relaxing.

I don't have plans tonight which is okay because funds are low and debt is high so there's no need to spend frivolously. I'm probably going to go home, workout, cook, clean and then pass out as I read the rest of my current juicy vampire novel.

Random things on my mind:

• Wedding, Wedding, Wedding! I feel like time flew by and while I have done so much, there is still so much more to do! Yikes! I am scared, nervous and anxious all at once. The Comics below reflect how I am feeling:

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• Photography. Lately I've been in the mood to take pictures. I guess reading other people's blogs has encouraged me to get back in to photography. Maybe get a camcorder? Let's see.

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• Valentine's Day. Nat and I are on a super tight budget, but I really want to get him something nice because I love him so much. He says not to get him a thing, but I am the mushy sentimental type-so I must! Now the question is...what shall I get the man I love?

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• My Birthday. It's in march and I am turning 27. This is a fun event, but I can't help but feel old. I know I shouldn't but I do. I don't have any plans or anything, but I know that I want to do something fun because last year I didn't get to celebrate my bday because we moved in to our new condo on the weekend that followed my bday.

Oh well...til next blog posting.