BUFF Bride...Super Woman!

When I woke up this morning I immediately thought about my weight loss goal. I know that I am not going to do the Retro Fitness thing but I don't want that to delay my goal. I have to take the matters in to my own hands because let's face it-who else can I count on to get to my goal? I have my wonderful supportive Fiance but I need to really just face the reality of doing it myself. So with that in my mind, I began thinking of ways to complete my workout at home. I remembered that back when My hunny popped the question he bought us both books to help us get in to shape. The books have been sitting and I think it's time to really take them seriously and have them teach me a thing or two!

The book my fiance got me is titled BUFF Brides by Sue Fleming:

I read through it and I have to get some essentials before I kick off my workout regimen. I have to get an exercise ball, dumbbells, workout mat, ankle weights and a stepper. I thankfully already have a treadmill so that makes my shopping list a little less expensive! I am going out and getting these items and I promise myself to remain positive! It's going to be hard but I want to be successful in my journey. I want this to not only be about my wedding but about my health in the long run.

My family has a history of health issues which include, diabetes, cancer, obesity, high blood pressure and I want to try my best sway away from the health issues in anyway I can. I plan on having a family full of children (if Lord blesses me with one!) and I want to be a strong mother and wife. One that will have the energy to be healthy and happy for my loved ones. I know I can't be super woman but I will try my best to give it my all and I believe being healthy will help tremendously! I also want to set a good example for my family and let them see that I am serious about living life to the fullest.

I want to be their SUPER WOMAN!

Wow...this cartoon is hot!

Not her again!

In my last blog I was so excited about going to my new gym: RetroFitness. Well I am sad to say that those plans have changed. I received an annoying phone call from my Fiance yesterday that forced me to cancel my membership with the gym. You see, I wasn't annoyed that he called me and it wasn't his fault as to why I had to cancel either. The reason behind the cancellation is due to the fact that we have/had a stalker. Yes, I kid you not. I know you are wondering for real? Well if you read this and you personally know me then you know the whole story.

LONG STORY SHORT:

If you don't know me then I'll fill you in. We dealt with a really bad situation in the past where a female (who shall be nameless) from my Fiances past decided that it would be okay to find herself where ever we went and eventually moved in next door to us. Yes, as in literally the very next door to our home. She harassed us for quite some time and it became an ugly issue.

You may say to yourself: Was she Crazy? Loca? Looney? Mentally deranged? Demented? Insane? Senseless? Impractical? Totally unsound? Infatuated?

YES!

Well, I've come to find out that this stalker goes to RetroFitness and therefore I cannot go there due to the fact that she may

• Follow me home or


• Vandalize my car or


• Stalk my Fiance or


• Move in next door to our new home or


• Do something nutty period.

With all the risks involved with having her near me in anyway, I decided to find another gym and trainer. I am a little bummed out because I was so excited to workout with a trainer in a new gym, but I am glad I found out about the stalker issue before I started to attend and then have her realize I attend the same gym. I hope I can find a new gym that is affordable, although I doubt I'll find something as good as RetroFitness b/c they only charge $20/month and that's a steal compared to other places.

Fitness...Retro style

My Fiance is the very best! I was moaning and groaning to him about my lack of weight loss even though I have been eating much healthier, counting calories and doing cardio several times a week and he looked in to a personal trainer at Retro Fitness. He wants me to work out the correct way and not just starve myself as he says I do. I totally do no but since I eat proper portions, he thinks I have been starving myself.

We took a tour today of the Retro Fitness gym and we were both impressed with it's modern approach to fitness. There are flat screen TVs attached to every machine, which was pretty neat and there was a movie theater room with cardio machines. The theatre is huge and features a different 80's movie each day. I am so excited to go there. I meet with a trainer and he was very helpful and we are going to meet on Monday to go over my goals. I am nervous because I know I am so out of shape but I am also excited because I want to feel good about certain areas again. Plus I want to look beautiful in my wedding dress. My fiance assures me that I am beautiful no matter what which is why I love him so much but I want to feel beautiful!

Wish me luck!

I must remember to be A Woman of Strength

So.....

I was having an emotional day today where stress hit me from all different angles at the same time (does that ever happen to you?) and after the tears drenched my face, neck and t-shirt-I got back from my visual water world and I decided to search the net for something that would lift me up. Crazy of me to think that something that had a .com at the end of it would do such a thing, (but being a researcher at heart and journalist major) however I Goggled "Strong Woman" and the poem below is the first thing that popped up. After reading the poem, I just was pleasantly surprised of what it said b/c too many times I feel like I have to be this tough as nails, yet sweet as sugar quintessential woman, when what I really have to do is be me (duh! What a cliche-I know). Anyway, I was moved by the poem b/c it helped me to realize for this moment b/c I know I'll forget again all too soon, how I just have to take things one step at a time and enjoy the ride. I've been too worried about every friggen thing, when I should just take it easy, chill out and appreciate my blessings.

A Strong Woman vs. A Woman of Strength

A strong woman works out everyday to keep her body in shape…

But a woman of strength builds relationships to keep her soul in shape

A strong woman isn't afraid of anything…

But a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of fear.

A strong woman won't let anyone get the better of her…

But a woman of strength gives the best of herself to everyone.

A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future…

A woman of strength realizes life's mistakes can also be unexpected
blessings,

and capitalizes on them.

A strong woman wears a look of confidence on her face…

But a woman of strength wears grace.

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey…

But a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will
become strong.

Copyright © 2005 Dee Cheeks

Corporate Zombie

Well I got in to work this morning and one of the new "cool" managers came over to say hi and we made small talk about the weekend. When I say "cool" I mean that he has yet to fully drink the corportate koolaid and turn. He moved from another state and I guess that makes him stick out in a positive way. So anyway, he realized that I removed all my personal items from my desk and was concerned. I told him that THEY told me to not do anything personal at work and THEY suggested I not take any lunch amongst other really crappy things. The cool manager said that he now understands why I removed all my personal things. He was scared that I had foot in the door and one out. I told him I've had that foot out the door a long time ago. I mean seriously I have maybe a pinky toe in the door keeping me here. This place just sucks the life out of you and I don't plan on sticking around to become a corporate zombie.

My First Blog...

I can't even type much because I have to run off to my GOD Awful J-O-B. I am excited to start a blog because I want to document my day to day life experiences and I want to write more. One of my NEW YEARS goals was to write more and gain a knack for creative writing. I was really in to it years ago then I lost my confidence and that was the end of that. Funny how confidence can make you so crappy.

I have other goals I want to accomplish this year. I NEED to lose weight for myself and oh yea this sorta BIG thing coming up...MY WEDDING! Holy Cow! I can't believe I am getting married. At one point in my life I swore off the word marriage but as I always say: everything happens for a reason! So here I am, I am 26 years old and I am lucky enough to have found a wonderful man who I simply adore and who loves me back. There isn't a day that passes that I don't thank GOD for blessing me with the love that surrounds me including Nathaniel's Love. (THANK YOU LORD!)

So as I stated earlier, I have to rush off to the gray cubicle they have me sit at for 9 hours of the day called my desk and do some mindless things called work. And yes I am thankful that during these hard times I have a job, but I hated my job way before the recession so I will continue to hate it until I find something that better suits me.

Anyway, I pray I have a good day and when I get back home maybe I'll have something funny or interesting to place in my shiny new blog.

Grrrr

Well I am writing in this because I am really mad at the moment and who better to talk to than my blog (yes, the one I forgot about). I feel this is the best place to vent because no one knows this page exists and therefore I can vent freely. I really don't want anyone to know about this page because I want to use it for therapy.

Well I am mad because I am having a bad day. I know that we all have bad days, but today started out okay then turned to shit. I have a function to attend tomorrow and I had a hair appt that got cancelled and that made me upset because I hate when I plan something that doesn't go through. So I called my backup hair stylist and made an appt. When she told me she could see me I felt so relieved and then I showed up to her door for her to then tell me she can't do my hair. I left furious b/c I thought she would help me. Now I would do my own hair, but my hair hangs down to my waist and it is too long to straighten by myself. I have been growing my hair to donate it and I truly believe this year will be the year I donate it. I wanted to do it last year but my boyfriend loves it and he would have been hurt if I cut it so I waited. I think this year will be best to do it because it really weighs me down and I am tired of just leaving down and it looking the way it always does. I think cutting it and giving it to Locks of Love will also cleanse my spirit. I think this will allow me to feel whole once I grow new hair.

The whole hair appt is not the only thing upsetting me. I am also upset because my boyfriends sister hates me. All of his friends love me and his mom loves me too but his sister can't stand me and I have only tried to be nice to her. I am by nature a sweet fun loving person who enjoys to talk to people and make new friends. His sister also always hangs out with his ex who I can't stand and that really bothers me. It makes me feel like his sis wishes he were with his ex instead of me. It hurts that she never gave me a chance. I always give people chances and I'd like for her to be at least friendly with me. I am not a bad person and I feel like when she talks to me its a disgusting chore for her to do. Her 7 year old son loves me, but I think she secretly wishes I would die. One of her closest friends is his ex so I know she must secretly hate me since his ex hates me.

I know I am the more mature person and I will continue to keep my head up and Kill her with kindness, but deep down inside I wish she were cordial with me. Let's see what happens.

Well I am going to get to bed now. My eyes are heavy from crying.