Double Date

Double Dated with Raquel & Danny last night and had a great time. We didn't see, "The Uninvited," because we heard it got bad reviews. Instead we watched, "Taken," starring Liam Neeson and it's a story about a father searching for his daughter after she's been kidnapped by a ruthless human trafficking crew.

I didn't know what the movie was about when I walked in to the theater but once it started rolling, I really enjoyed the action packed story line. I am a Daddy's Girl and I imagine my dad going nuts and seeking revenge on who ever laid a finger on me like Liam Neeson did in this movie. That is if my dad had a history of working as a secret government bad ass like Neeson did in the movie!

I totally recommend this movie. It was filled with great action scenes and kept you on the edge of your seat!

This coming weekend...

I just felt like writing in here because I am in the mood to write. I don't have anything in particular to write about just felt like writing.

Hmmm...Well I have plans tomorrow to see a movie with our dear friends Danny & Raquel.

We will probably see Uninvited which looks really scary. And it's from the makers of the Ring, so I know the make up artists make dead people look really gross and scary.

This is how the movie will play out: When I hear the scary music come on in the movie that gives you the cue an ugly discombobulated body will pop up any minute, I will probably dig my face in to Nathaniel's arm only to come out every few seconds and continually ask him, "What's going on?" Nathaniel will probably get annoyed and say, "Babe, can you watch the movie?" And then I'll still ask him, but I'll just rephrase the question and it'll bug him. I know I annoy him because I always want to go see the scary movies then I turn in to a chicken shit and hide behind his sleeve.
I am so happy he loves me and still takes me to see the scary movies even though I'll probably be spooked out for about a week and make him go check on noises and shadows.

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On another note, I am getting my flower girls fitted this Saturday for the wedding. I am very excited about that. I cannot wait to see how cute they will look in their dresses.

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Sunday is the super bowl and while I usually only watch to see the funny commercials, I think I will actually tune in to see the Steelers. I know this sounds incredibly silly but I am a fan of Troy fan. I just love his long hair. In my single days I would never go for a guy with long hair but I like his hair. It looks so soft and fluffy. I am so silly! So needless to say, I hope the Steelers win the Superbowl on Sunday.

I also hope they have really good commercials too!

Bored. Blasé. Uninterested. Jaded.

So I have a secret past time. When I get bored I look up comics that pertain to my current mood. Anyone who has read my blog probably realized by now that I don't just express myself by writing. I like to illustrate my feelings via pieces of clever comical art a.k.a comics.

So with that being said...Here are comics that clarify my current sentiments:

Who knew chicken were so funny and delicious?

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You see...I wish I had an IV filled with espresso plugged in to me.

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This is what I currently wish I were doing. Sleeping.
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Do you think anyone would notice if I walked around with post-it notes on my eyelids?
Doubt it.
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Man, I wish I could hang this in my cube.

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Yes! A practical idea to pass time at work. I am starting this effective immediately.

Goals...

So this year I have many goals...
My biggest goal is my weight loss and I have been trying my best to lose the excess pounds but it is so hard. I have been eating healthy, counting calories, drinking green tea, downing lots of water and doing cardio and numerous workouts. Even with all of that, I feel like I am getting no where fast. I keep thinking to myself...maybe my body is a pack rat and does not want to let go to the pounds b/c it's emotionally attached to them.

I know that sounds dumb but I really don't know what else could be the reason for losing minimal pounds and yet I am trying so hard. I cannot give up but there are times where I want to just postpone the wedding just so I can shed more weight. I know that is not realistic but I just want to look good and feel good as I walk down the aisle. My Fiance keeps assuring me that he loves me and I look fine. Well I know that I don't feel fine and I know I need to lose weight to look and feel fine. It is so hard. He is on the diet too but I don't feel as though he is really trying hard because he doesn't work out or weigh himself often. He also has no problem indulging either. Bad Food will pop up around us like a vandal in a riot and I say "NO!" to the bad food and he says, "Come on! You can indulge here and there." This frustrates me sometimes because I wish he were more strict and when he advocates the bad food I feel like I am being a sour puss.

Guys just don't understand. We as women have to be and are expected to be glamorous, beautiful and seamless on our wedding day. We have to have perfect skin, hair dress and we cannot look like we are bulging out of it. I feel like I will look like a gross blob of white lace and its driving me insane and making me nervous about my BIG day. Everyone is so happy about the wedding and I thrilled to marry the man I love but I feel like I will look at my pictures down the road and say "OMG, ILL, put those away-I look hideous and fat!" I don't want to feel like that so I am doing all the things that I believe will help me but still losing ever so slowly. It sucks so bad. I hate it. I wish for one day I could be made of clay and I can sculpt myself the way I want to look. I know, I know--I live in a fantasy world and I dream too much but I am a Pisces and that's what we do=Dream!

Well enough of this pointless banter about things I cannot change (as fast as I'd like).

Lord, please grant me the metabolism of Olympic sprinter and the patience of Gandhi.

Random things...

Well, this week was a normal work week filled with lots of paperwork, annoying customers and mundane tasks. In the beginning of the week, I was sick and had an ear infection that is now all cleared up thankfully due to antibiotics. Nat gave me the cold I had and now although he didn't take any antibiotics, he's no longer sick. Sheesh! Men and their self-curing ways!

However, my poor Fiance now has a strained neck. He woke up yesterday with a severe pain in his neck and the doctor gave him meds. I wish I could cure his stiff neck, but only time heals all. I hate to see my loved ones hurt.

Some Great and Not so Great events occurred this week in regards to my family.

A Great event: It was my Mom's birthday and we all went out to Red Lobster for a drooling over cheese biscuit good time! We had some good laughs and it felt good to spend time with my lovely family. My Mom really liked the massage I got her and I was happy because she can be very picky at times when it comes to gifts.

Not so Great Event: My bro got into a car accident and scared the crap out of me! I thought he was hurt and I was so tense driving to the loss scene. Thankfully, he was okay; just a little shaken up because it was his first car accident. I deal with car accidents everyday at work but it's harder to deal with them when a loved one is involved.

Other than my week recap, it's the weekend and I am so happy to get a break from work. My job sucks the life out of me and when I am not at work my world is just so peaceful and relaxing.

I don't have plans tonight which is okay because funds are low and debt is high so there's no need to spend frivolously. I'm probably going to go home, workout, cook, clean and then pass out as I read the rest of my current juicy vampire novel.

Random things on my mind:

• Wedding, Wedding, Wedding! I feel like time flew by and while I have done so much, there is still so much more to do! Yikes! I am scared, nervous and anxious all at once. The Comics below reflect how I am feeling:

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• Photography. Lately I've been in the mood to take pictures. I guess reading other people's blogs has encouraged me to get back in to photography. Maybe get a camcorder? Let's see.

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• Valentine's Day. Nat and I are on a super tight budget, but I really want to get him something nice because I love him so much. He says not to get him a thing, but I am the mushy sentimental type-so I must! Now the question is...what shall I get the man I love?

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• My Birthday. It's in march and I am turning 27. This is a fun event, but I can't help but feel old. I know I shouldn't but I do. I don't have any plans or anything, but I know that I want to do something fun because last year I didn't get to celebrate my bday because we moved in to our new condo on the weekend that followed my bday.

Oh well...til next blog posting.

Dedicated to our New President

I wanted to express my happiness on my blog yesterday due to Obama's Inauguration but I was unfortunately very sick. I left work early and saw the doctor. I have a bad sinus and ear infection. Thank God for antibiotics because I feel much better today.

Thank God for OBAMA!
I also feel wonderful today because today we have a new President and I am so relieved that BUSH is out of the oval office! He did AMERICA no good and I am thankful that the nation has a new leader who is smart, eloquent and innovative! All adjectives that Bush could never be described as. Bush was a fool and I know things will get better for so many people now that CHANGE has occurred.

I cannot write long in this blog because I am quite busy, but I wanted to pay respect to our new President by dedicating this blog to him and also committing to future hours of service to my community. During his campaign, Obama asked that as citizens we take charge to help out our community and I have already signed up for a few activities to do just that! I will fill my blog with these activities as they come along.

In the meantime I want to decorate my blog with some beautiful pictures in honor of President Barack Obama, the 44th President of the United States of America!

"Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek." Obama

"If you're walking down the right path and you're willing to keep walking, eventually you'll make progress." Obama

"We need to internalize this idea of excellence. Not many folks spend a lot of time trying to be excellent." Obama

"Focusing your life solely on making a buck shows a certain poverty of ambition. It asks too little of yourself. Because it's only when you hitch your wagon to something larger than yourself that you realize your true potential." Obama

"This is the moment when we must build on the wealth that open markets have created, and share its benefits more equitably. Trade has been a cornerstone of our growth and global development. But we will not be able to sustain this growth if it favors the few, and not the many." Obama

"There is not a liberal America and a conservative America - there is the United States of America. There is not a black America and a white America and Latino America and Asian America - there's the United States of America." Obama

"It took a lot of blood, sweat and tears to get to where we are today, but we have just begun. Today we begin in earnest the work of making sure that the world we leave our children is just a little bit better than the one we inhabit today." Obama

BUFF Bride...Super Woman!

When I woke up this morning I immediately thought about my weight loss goal. I know that I am not going to do the Retro Fitness thing but I don't want that to delay my goal. I have to take the matters in to my own hands because let's face it-who else can I count on to get to my goal? I have my wonderful supportive Fiance but I need to really just face the reality of doing it myself. So with that in my mind, I began thinking of ways to complete my workout at home. I remembered that back when My hunny popped the question he bought us both books to help us get in to shape. The books have been sitting and I think it's time to really take them seriously and have them teach me a thing or two!

The book my fiance got me is titled BUFF Brides by Sue Fleming:

I read through it and I have to get some essentials before I kick off my workout regimen. I have to get an exercise ball, dumbbells, workout mat, ankle weights and a stepper. I thankfully already have a treadmill so that makes my shopping list a little less expensive! I am going out and getting these items and I promise myself to remain positive! It's going to be hard but I want to be successful in my journey. I want this to not only be about my wedding but about my health in the long run.

My family has a history of health issues which include, diabetes, cancer, obesity, high blood pressure and I want to try my best sway away from the health issues in anyway I can. I plan on having a family full of children (if Lord blesses me with one!) and I want to be a strong mother and wife. One that will have the energy to be healthy and happy for my loved ones. I know I can't be super woman but I will try my best to give it my all and I believe being healthy will help tremendously! I also want to set a good example for my family and let them see that I am serious about living life to the fullest.

I want to be their SUPER WOMAN!

Wow...this cartoon is hot!

Not her again!

In my last blog I was so excited about going to my new gym: RetroFitness. Well I am sad to say that those plans have changed. I received an annoying phone call from my Fiance yesterday that forced me to cancel my membership with the gym. You see, I wasn't annoyed that he called me and it wasn't his fault as to why I had to cancel either. The reason behind the cancellation is due to the fact that we have/had a stalker. Yes, I kid you not. I know you are wondering for real? Well if you read this and you personally know me then you know the whole story.

LONG STORY SHORT:

If you don't know me then I'll fill you in. We dealt with a really bad situation in the past where a female (who shall be nameless) from my Fiances past decided that it would be okay to find herself where ever we went and eventually moved in next door to us. Yes, as in literally the very next door to our home. She harassed us for quite some time and it became an ugly issue.

You may say to yourself: Was she Crazy? Loca? Looney? Mentally deranged? Demented? Insane? Senseless? Impractical? Totally unsound? Infatuated?

YES!

Well, I've come to find out that this stalker goes to RetroFitness and therefore I cannot go there due to the fact that she may

• Follow me home or


• Vandalize my car or


• Stalk my Fiance or


• Move in next door to our new home or


• Do something nutty period.

With all the risks involved with having her near me in anyway, I decided to find another gym and trainer. I am a little bummed out because I was so excited to workout with a trainer in a new gym, but I am glad I found out about the stalker issue before I started to attend and then have her realize I attend the same gym. I hope I can find a new gym that is affordable, although I doubt I'll find something as good as RetroFitness b/c they only charge $20/month and that's a steal compared to other places.

Fitness...Retro style

My Fiance is the very best! I was moaning and groaning to him about my lack of weight loss even though I have been eating much healthier, counting calories and doing cardio several times a week and he looked in to a personal trainer at Retro Fitness. He wants me to work out the correct way and not just starve myself as he says I do. I totally do no but since I eat proper portions, he thinks I have been starving myself.

We took a tour today of the Retro Fitness gym and we were both impressed with it's modern approach to fitness. There are flat screen TVs attached to every machine, which was pretty neat and there was a movie theater room with cardio machines. The theatre is huge and features a different 80's movie each day. I am so excited to go there. I meet with a trainer and he was very helpful and we are going to meet on Monday to go over my goals. I am nervous because I know I am so out of shape but I am also excited because I want to feel good about certain areas again. Plus I want to look beautiful in my wedding dress. My fiance assures me that I am beautiful no matter what which is why I love him so much but I want to feel beautiful!

Wish me luck!

I must remember to be A Woman of Strength

So.....

I was having an emotional day today where stress hit me from all different angles at the same time (does that ever happen to you?) and after the tears drenched my face, neck and t-shirt-I got back from my visual water world and I decided to search the net for something that would lift me up. Crazy of me to think that something that had a .com at the end of it would do such a thing, (but being a researcher at heart and journalist major) however I Goggled "Strong Woman" and the poem below is the first thing that popped up. After reading the poem, I just was pleasantly surprised of what it said b/c too many times I feel like I have to be this tough as nails, yet sweet as sugar quintessential woman, when what I really have to do is be me (duh! What a cliche-I know). Anyway, I was moved by the poem b/c it helped me to realize for this moment b/c I know I'll forget again all too soon, how I just have to take things one step at a time and enjoy the ride. I've been too worried about every friggen thing, when I should just take it easy, chill out and appreciate my blessings.

A Strong Woman vs. A Woman of Strength

A strong woman works out everyday to keep her body in shape…

But a woman of strength builds relationships to keep her soul in shape

A strong woman isn't afraid of anything…

But a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of fear.

A strong woman won't let anyone get the better of her…

But a woman of strength gives the best of herself to everyone.

A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future…

A woman of strength realizes life's mistakes can also be unexpected
blessings,

and capitalizes on them.

A strong woman wears a look of confidence on her face…

But a woman of strength wears grace.

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey…

But a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will
become strong.

Copyright © 2005 Dee Cheeks

Corporate Zombie

Well I got in to work this morning and one of the new "cool" managers came over to say hi and we made small talk about the weekend. When I say "cool" I mean that he has yet to fully drink the corportate koolaid and turn. He moved from another state and I guess that makes him stick out in a positive way. So anyway, he realized that I removed all my personal items from my desk and was concerned. I told him that THEY told me to not do anything personal at work and THEY suggested I not take any lunch amongst other really crappy things. The cool manager said that he now understands why I removed all my personal things. He was scared that I had foot in the door and one out. I told him I've had that foot out the door a long time ago. I mean seriously I have maybe a pinky toe in the door keeping me here. This place just sucks the life out of you and I don't plan on sticking around to become a corporate zombie.

My First Blog...

I can't even type much because I have to run off to my GOD Awful J-O-B. I am excited to start a blog because I want to document my day to day life experiences and I want to write more. One of my NEW YEARS goals was to write more and gain a knack for creative writing. I was really in to it years ago then I lost my confidence and that was the end of that. Funny how confidence can make you so crappy.

I have other goals I want to accomplish this year. I NEED to lose weight for myself and oh yea this sorta BIG thing coming up...MY WEDDING! Holy Cow! I can't believe I am getting married. At one point in my life I swore off the word marriage but as I always say: everything happens for a reason! So here I am, I am 26 years old and I am lucky enough to have found a wonderful man who I simply adore and who loves me back. There isn't a day that passes that I don't thank GOD for blessing me with the love that surrounds me including Nathaniel's Love. (THANK YOU LORD!)

So as I stated earlier, I have to rush off to the gray cubicle they have me sit at for 9 hours of the day called my desk and do some mindless things called work. And yes I am thankful that during these hard times I have a job, but I hated my job way before the recession so I will continue to hate it until I find something that better suits me.

Anyway, I pray I have a good day and when I get back home maybe I'll have something funny or interesting to place in my shiny new blog.